Sing For The Past

I’m going to flash back tonight, about 5 month ago. I want to share this, so you didn’t make a mistake like I did.

I started work as a cook on January. I told that I love cooking, didn’t? I love that job so much. It reminds me of the games I used to played when I was teen (such as Dinner Dash, Cooking Mama, and the other cooking game) :D. I enjoyed my work, but there's always something left to learn, isn't it? And I left all my social life. It wasn't feel hard, because I had The-Dream-Job. But, in the second months, my "homework" didn't as hard as the first time (When I do what I love to, I became fast-learner accidentally) and I started to recovered my relationship with the others, especially my romantic relationship.

At that moment, I always felt tired every time I finished my work (my job wasted much energy) and I couldn't pretend my romantic relationship was okay. And, I broke up with "Looked-Like-Mr.Right" at the end of February. There was only a reason why I left him. He putted our relationship in the complicated situation. I tried to make it simple, easier, but still on the line and I asked him to slow down, but he didn’t get it. He said that “I'm ambitious” (in a bad way). Yeah, I agree that too much of anything isn't good, but in other case, people should be ambitious to reach their goals. Life is not that simple, isn't it? Life is not just about "what you have" but about "what you want to have" either. Someone said that "All great achievements required time", and according to my experience "time doesn't wait for anyone".

I admit that in the past I've been a 24-years-old realistic woman. But, I thought that wasn't enough. I need much much much more than that to make a relationship works, and the important thing to do is dealing with the past. I thought that I moved on but I didn’t. And look, my relationship has been messed. There was only one thing to do to be happier, which is forgive myself so I could accept myself the way I am and realize that everybody have bad memories in the past. The process has always been an unpredictable and unlimited. It's depend on you. Don't waste your time with those "unimportant things but seriously annoy". Just chase your dream and believe that "Love waits patiently". 

Live once, be happy :)